it's a dream or reality?

thinking back still blur... what's actually happened today? though its not serious n i was just thinking too much. though its only happen in love dramas but all of sudden he called me up n brought up the issue again! i gave the same reasons again. i really don't have that kind of feeling n interest. why it feel suffer to reject a guy?! am i that worth for him to like me so much?! is this a mistake or fate? i happy about it and at the same time feel guilty about it. i just don't get it! oh god, i'm going crazy! i like the way i am, the life i living n the things i do now. i know things will not go the way i want. i was just acting strong in front of everyone.